Revelations

..and no I'm not talking about the Bible here...

So I had quiet a revalation recently.

I have been dating a guy for a couple of months and things were going great.. then it went from great to really?  So for the past week or so I've been trying to get to the bottom of what was going on inside of his head, and I think I've got a good grasp. See he gave me some BS reasons and I called him out on it. He finally admits that it's because of my constant non-seriousness and sarcastic remarks. Really? So the only issue in our relationship is that. I think that's pretty darn good.  Especially coming from a relationship where we had so many things wrong between us that the only thing we agreed on was that we weren't right for each other.  I mean really? I find it quiet laughable... but this morning as I was thinking about things.. because I'm a huge over-thinker... I came to the revelation that it wasn't that I'm non-serious/sarcastic, it's the fact that I'm a pretty strong and independent woman who can take care of herself and doesn't 'need' a man.  What's interesting is that most men say that's what they want, but in reality, they don't know how to handle a woman who can take care of herself.  As I think back when I recently put plastic over my windows (to keep the cold out and the heat it) I did it by myself and I remember him being a little sad that I did it.  Well, it was something that I could do myself, so why would I need someone to help me?  I'm not trying to be a bra-burning femenist here. I'm just saying, I would rather spend quality time with you doing something fun than hanging plastic on my windows.

What I've realized the last couple years about myself is that I'm really good at taking care of myself.  I can do simple things around the house, I can do a few things with my car, I manage my money, and even find time to cook for myself! I realize that I can be intimidating because I don't 'need' a guy.  What they don't understand is, I don't need you to change the light bulb, but I need you when I'm having a bad day to make me laugh. I need the emotional support.  Just because I don't need you to do things for me doesn't mean I don't need you to be there.  I'm not going to change, nor will I apologize for being this way.  I like the fact that I can take care of myself. When the tough get going, I can go right along with it, because I know I can handle it. I woudl think a guy would like to know that when things get bad, he won't face it alone and that I'd be strong enough to carry him through.

I'm sure I'm not alone in this. And for those who know what I am talking about, you just want to look at these guys and be like, really? Get over yourself.  We are the type of women you want. We are the type of women that will let you live the life you want. Why? Because we are secure in ourselves. We can function on our own. We don't need to have you around 24/7.

So anyways.. that's my rant for today.  Anyone else have these issues? No what I'm talking about?

Take it easy.

P.S. I finally framed my Bing Crosby 'White Christmas' record... I'm posting that soon! I'm in love with it!

My List

Let’s make a deal. Shall we?

Let’s make a deal to stop being mediocre. I’m kind over that. I’m over people not living up to their talents. It really is time to get things right. It’s always got to start with figuring out what you want.

So here’s my list:

Buy a house with a Garage

• Ultimately end up in Farm House.
• I’d like to have:
• Chicken Co-op
• Garden

Pay Off my Car

• Ultimately end up with my car and a 4 Wheel Drive truck
• I’d like to have:
•  a quad (or two)
• A bench seat truck from the 80’s or earlier.

To be in the best shape of my life.

• Ultimately I want to do 10 pull ups and 25 push ups
• I’d like to continue to run races and complete a half-marathon

 Quit my job

• Ultimately I’d love to be a full-time crafter that reuses materials and creates awesome things
•  I’d like to put my time and effort into something I’m passionate about.

I want to travel

• Ultimately I’d love to go to Italy
• I’d love to:
• travel to Asia and South America
• take a train across the U. S.
• take a boat from Europe to NYC.
• Go somewhere new every year.

 Financially Independent

•  Ultimately I will never rely on a credit card
• Car should be paid off by February of 2013
• Student loan debt by 2015
• Credit Card paid off by July 2012
• Comfortable savings account
•  Financial Freedom

As for my life, I want to live simply and have a great love.

• Ultimately I want to live the life I have always dreamed of
• I’d like to
• inspire people to do the same
•  never sacrifice who I am
• never forget what I’ve gone through/where I'm from

This list will always be a work in progress. It’s supposed to be high-level but also achievable. It might not be this year, but this is my goal in life. This is my focus I’m going to stop settling and start working for what I want. I got into the habit of just walking meaninglessly through life. Times they are a changing.

It’s said that we are more likely to achieve our goals if we right them down. So here it is. These are my goals. In black and white. On the internet no less, which means they will always be somewhere. It’s up to me to reach these goals.

  

‘Get busy livin’ or get busy dyin’”

-Shawshank Redemption

What’s on your list? Write it down. Make it happen.

Stop waiting to win the lottery.

Stop waiting for it to come to you.

Go out and do it.

Just Do It. 

  

Take it easy.